It's May.
Nothing got written in April. Well, storylike snippets, more biographic than anything, but that's it.
I was supposed to write three pieces. The month slipped through my bare toes.

I did go to Australia fashion week, though. That was pretty amazing.

Seven weeks of study left. I have so much to do. Going into hermit mode. Will try to write ... something.

Peace.

(These are NOT complaints. Just a head's up.)

-400 or so pages of reading
(because I'm massively backlogged)
-100p/week on average, so not at all bad
-Papers due on the 17th & 24th of April
(no, I haven't started them)
-Running the co-op, which is like a part-time job that actually acts like a full-time job, without paying me
-Writing three poems by the end of the month

Oh, and I'm 27. The age at which rock stars guy. I think I'm finally grateful to not be a rock star. I would like to have a personal trainer though. And my own apartment. God, I wish I had my own place. Sharing is all fine and good, with clean people.

Love ya!
Sorry I'm not here.
You know me, fits & starts.

~ Meghan

I'm doing a lot of hours/week at the co-op, which is unfortunately inconsistent & not at all routine-like. I like routine. It works for me, it helps me balance out my life. I miss it.

Anyway, aspects of my life are not working, other things are. I'm not getting enough sleep & more stressed than I ought to be considering how little I'm doing. I'm also not eating as properly as, apparently, I should be. It's showing.

My social life is pretty rockin' though. I live in a cool house with nice hippie folk who are presently tip-toeing around me for fear that I'm going to crack at any moment. They're mixing up signs of sleep deprivation for signs of stress, but I will let them.
And maybe I am falling apart.
I'm not sure.
Every day is sort of a new adventure. Sometimes a slight nightmare. Sometimes an absolute joy.

Hmm, I'll have to think that over.

I am having a lot of fun. I saw Stars on Tuesday night, and it was completely fucking amazing. I like my work at the co-op, but will like it heaps better when it's not so full on. I'm keen to start studying again as that'll engage my intellect & keep me busy. My friends are great & I love them. And I have two (and a half) different sets, all of my own choosing. Finally. Go me.

Okay, yes. So Uni starts back up Monday next. Next week is Orientation Week, and will be mental. Yes, yes.

Bye.

I am
editing
volunteering
vegan, light
mourning
trying to surrender
feeling
denying feelings
writing more than I have in a long time
loving muesli
fantasizing about art
and affection
praying for sunshine
practicing salsa
trying to be a good friend
dealing with pain
recognizing my issues--some of them
moving forward
loving Sydney
in love, at this moment, with this moment, and maybe something more
calm tonight

I've been wandering 'round this website for five years. Man, how'd that happen?
I was always a critic of online friendships until I stumbled onto this site, and some of you. Thanks for putting up with me & my ups and downs.

Mad love.